♥ Saturday, October 23, 2010 ♥
[ Every Sunrise Is A New Begining ]
Im feeling rather depress recently .. i duno wads happening to me. Every lil thing can make me cry, i tried to control my tears bt it just drop down. I kip reminding myself I cant be like wad I am in the past, Im a mother nw Im must learn to be a better person, I must change my temper and attitude. Im tolerating as n when i needed to, everything tt i hear tt makes me unhappy I'll just kip quiet n kip to myself but Im crying inside Im reali doing my best alr.
Today I feel bad for messaging my husband nasty msg n end my phone call with him, but he didnt even sae anythin / quarrel wit me. Things tt he said w/o he himself knowing reali make me feel uncomfortable thou its a lil thing but I just dun like I REALI DUN LIKE !! Every topic we tok abt, U will make her involve in the topic, sumtyms I wana avoid quarels so I just smile to u pretended i hear nth, once or twice I can pretend but hw many more tyms u wan me to treat like nth? I told u I dun like but agn n agn u do it. Wad am I to u, stand in my shoes n spare a thought on how would I feel hearing you kip toking abt her. U told me she's just a colleague but to wad i feel she's more than tt to u, agn n agn i kip telling myself there's nth between u n her. Im sad but wad can i do NTH!!! I felt so useless n timid nw I dun even dare to voice out anything. I reali dunid anythin from u JUST STOP SAYING THINGS TT WILL HURT ME!
Today I feel bad for messaging my husband nasty msg n end my phone call with him, but he didnt even sae anythin / quarrel wit me. Things tt he said w/o he himself knowing reali make me feel uncomfortable thou its a lil thing but I just dun like I REALI DUN LIKE !! Every topic we tok abt, U will make her involve in the topic, sumtyms I wana avoid quarels so I just smile to u pretended i hear nth, once or twice I can pretend but hw many more tyms u wan me to treat like nth? I told u I dun like but agn n agn u do it. Wad am I to u, stand in my shoes n spare a thought on how would I feel hearing you kip toking abt her. U told me she's just a colleague but to wad i feel she's more than tt to u, agn n agn i kip telling myself there's nth between u n her. Im sad but wad can i do NTH!!! I felt so useless n timid nw I dun even dare to voice out anything. I reali dunid anythin from u JUST STOP SAYING THINGS TT WILL HURT ME!
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