♥ Saturday, November 20, 2010 ♥
[ Every Sunrise Is A New Begining ]
I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE
What is trust ? I don't know. And I dun wish to know anymore
Im trying hard to built up my trust for you but a lie of urs let all d trust went down the drain. In the past yes I admit, I lied b4 n make you disapointed but I learn from my mistakes n I dun lie anymore cos once a lie is told u'll nid tons of excuses to cover so I rather choose to b truthful to you. But have you learn ? I guess not. U lied agn. Everytym I ask u, nv once u r being truthful enuff to me, U even said "Since there's no TRUST lets go our seperate ways, you always make me dun feel like gg home, our marraige wont last" Until one day I found evidence of ur lies finally u admit. Upon knowing the truth, you still got d cheek to tell me "If I tell u, u'll b angry" Please! I told u a million tyms b4 I'll b more angry if you lie. U urself told me in a marraige d most impt is trust. Tell me Teach me HOW ? How do u wan me to trust u ? When agn n agn Im tolerating all ur F*ckin lies. From d start til nw u count urself how many tyms u've said sorry how many tyms had I forgive you how many tyms u said u wun do it the nxt tym ! First tym I felt so utterly deeply disapointed in u. First tym I told myself I wun care anymore just do wadever you wan. First tym I really feel like giving up on u n our marraige. First tym I truthfully wants to push you to another girl. First tym I dun feel like smiling anymore. Im sick Im tired. I can choose to quarel n scream n fcking throw my temper on u bt did I ? NO! U know y ? Cos there's no point. When u say sorry I ask you y u apologise. No use apologising when agn n agn u do it. When u lied to me did you care abt how I feel? Wun u feel guilty? I doubt so. U did wrong yet u can still throw ur temper on me. I should b d one telling u tt this marraige wun last bcos of all ur lies. My heart is so dead nw, U'll nv learn u left my heart deeply cut n sank. Maybe one day when u lose me u will then learn n to treasure.
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