My blog is dead since 22 march 2012.

Everything tt I blog abt him and me and our baby our family will end here.

Our lovestory our marriage have come to an end. It's over.

Last words to him thanks for cutting my heart so deeply tt it may not b heal anymore bt still I Nv ever regret loving you. Goodbye.

Nobody can predict how future will turn out to be. How do we look? Wad will we be doing? How our kids will grown up to be? What will happen to our life and road ahead? Nobody will know.

I've learned this word " TREASURE "

Treasure of what you have nw, love d ppl arnd you, most impt treasure n love yourself. If u wan ppl to treasure n love u, u have to first treasure n love yourself. If u choose to ruin urself nobody will ever pity u, they'll jus despite n look dwn upon you.

As I said, nobody can predict what future will be like so you and only you can choose the way you want ur life to be.

Be happy. Life is already so short, why not pass each day happily than being sad, angry, and thinking about unnecessary things.

For d sake of my precious daughter, I will be strong, cos life still have to goes on. I wun let ppl look dwn on me EVER AGAIN !!! I will change n I will. Nth matters nw, it's all jus for my baby girl.

Today was a wonderful day. :) Finally get to meet up with my darling sister.

Got to her workplace n get a treat of baked cream pie tt she did it herself, super duper yummy !!

After tt we went to visit my auntie for awhile we then went to city square mall for d sake of my sweetheart <3 Have our lunch at a restaurant there, thou the food is nt up til d standard bt bt but .. With my bestie arnd d food will still taste as nice haha !!

Bt seriously it's really cheap, 3 main course n free flow of drinks for jus 24$ !!!

After a full lunch, here come some warm up ! Which is SHOPPING !!

Bt what is d real exercise ??

It's to bring my sweetheart to d playground there to play til her heart content xD

Without realizing, it's alr late. So I went to bestie Hse for dinner cos her mum is so nice she cook my share too ! I really really really love homecook food simple bt jus so nice ! Thx Gwenny's mummy.

Thou it's a simple day I had bt to me it's jus tt wonderful <3

I hope one day we will really be as loving as when we first started. U r so true to me so faithful so caring n loving without letting me worry n insecure. Even thou nw. I'm realli feeling so insecure without u by me bt I dare nt ask u a thing. I promise to trust as u said. As long as I trust, u promise u wun let me dwn. I hope wad u said u mean it. I'm willing to change n I will let u love me once agn I really hope u will wait. Dun ever let me dwn or lie to me as I'll be gone forever.

Ive gotta stop thinking..

Love tt is given, it's impossible to take back.

U said to me that u still love me, bt I can't feel it. U r treating me so diff from d past, u seldom call or txt me, u treat me so coldly, u dun even call me ur baby nw.

U ask me nt to think so much bt hw is tt possible for me to do so. I'm feeling really miserable right nw, can anyone tell or teach me wad shld I do !?!?

I miss you I really do.
I miss ur kisses
I miss ur hugs
I miss ur voices
I miss ur calls n msges
I miss u calling me xiao luo Han
I miss watching movies wit u
I miss talking rubbish wit u
I miss d way u care for me
I miss everything of u.

If u love me no more pls let me Noe.
If u have another pls let me Noe.
I rather Noe d truth than living d way nw, damn miserable! Do u Noe !!!!!

Dun tell me tt u love me bt u r treating me tis way. I wan my papa Zac back !! I dun like d way he is nw!! :"(

Labels: Lao luo pls come back, Love me like hw u used to be. I promise i will b guai guai de.

宝宝 is sleeping so soundly already. Guess I will be turning in soon too if nt I will be torture by her in d big early morning Tmr :D

Isn't she adorable !! It's been so long since I blog. And she is nw 17 months already !!

宝宝‼你是真的好可爱哦‼(^з^)-☆

Hope everything will goes well. Im v happy tt u had read my post and I'm v happy the way u talk to me.

I just hope tt even if we can't stay tgt for d tym being u will b a good boy. And think before u do anything first. Really hope u wun lie or let me down.

And wish everything will go smoothly for me hoping tt d price is right to give me a chance to change.

If only time can turn back. I would go back to d tym we first met. Back at one.

Thou u r nt my first love bt u r d first man I truly gave u everything. My whole life. U pull me back to life u let me smile u let me Noe wads love u let me Noe d feeling of being love, dote, and someone tt care. U let me know d reason of living on. Thou u might nt b perfect bt to me u r the most wonderful person I've ever met the most wonderful man I Noe I could love.

But now...

You might b leaving.
What can I say. What can I do. Pretending to b strong im trying v hard to. I can't cry out loud. I have to hide all my tears n sadness. I dun wan anyone to worry I dun wan anyone to pity.

I'm trying v hard to pull myself out of ur life. I'm trying v hard to stop myself from texting you. I'm trying v hard nt to think of you. I'm trying v hard to stop my heart from hurting. I Noe it's impossible bt I'm forcing myself v hard to.

Even my sweetheart Noe I'm hurt I'm sad I'm crying she put her hand on my head n pat me. I may lie to myself bt even she as a baby can c me through.

U ask me to look for a better man I will sae no. From d day we r tgt I told myself thou u might nt b d first bt u shall b my last n only. I wan all my memories to stop here I dun wan any other man's love to replace the memories of my love to u. I dun wana b hurt I dun wana cry agn I dun wana b sad agn. Maybe tym could heal tis pain. Bt when ? I really duno maybe it will even take forever for me to still love u.

Letting go of me may be a gd start for you bt nt for me. Saying goodbye isn't d hard part its what we left behind that's tough. Our sweet memories.

Without u . I'm nth totally nth. I rely on u too much tt nw u r leaving I felt tt suddenly I'm falling from d top to d ground n there will b no one to hold me up agn. Felt tt my life is totally a mess nw. And I dun feel like bothering anythin or do anymore I jus wana ruin myself. Doing nth d whole day I dun wana eat I dun wana slp I dun wana do anything.

Zac Sim Yi Ming thx for everything you have given to me. Thank you

This is d song u gave it to me
This is d song u woo me back when I left.
I will always rem deep in my heart.

One, u're like a dream come true
Two, just wana be with you
Three, boy, it's plain to see
That u're d only one for me

And
four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make u fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one.

If there's a chance agn, in my nxt life or in tis life agn I would still wana b ur wife for u to love . I love you.

Goodbye my love.