♥ Friday, March 9, 2012 ♥
[ Every Sunrise Is A New Begining ]
If only time can turn back. I would go back to d tym we first met. Back at one.
Thou u r nt my first love bt u r d first man I truly gave u everything. My whole life. U pull me back to life u let me smile u let me Noe wads love u let me Noe d feeling of being love, dote, and someone tt care. U let me know d reason of living on. Thou u might nt b perfect bt to me u r the most wonderful person I've ever met the most wonderful man I Noe I could love.
But now...
You might b leaving.
What can I say. What can I do. Pretending to b strong im trying v hard to. I can't cry out loud. I have to hide all my tears n sadness. I dun wan anyone to worry I dun wan anyone to pity.
I'm trying v hard to pull myself out of ur life. I'm trying v hard to stop myself from texting you. I'm trying v hard nt to think of you. I'm trying v hard to stop my heart from hurting. I Noe it's impossible bt I'm forcing myself v hard to.
Even my sweetheart Noe I'm hurt I'm sad I'm crying she put her hand on my head n pat me. I may lie to myself bt even she as a baby can c me through.
U ask me to look for a better man I will sae no. From d day we r tgt I told myself thou u might nt b d first bt u shall b my last n only. I wan all my memories to stop here I dun wan any other man's love to replace the memories of my love to u. I dun wana b hurt I dun wana cry agn I dun wana b sad agn. Maybe tym could heal tis pain. Bt when ? I really duno maybe it will even take forever for me to still love u.
Letting go of me may be a gd start for you bt nt for me. Saying goodbye isn't d hard part its what we left behind that's tough. Our sweet memories.
Without u . I'm nth totally nth. I rely on u too much tt nw u r leaving I felt tt suddenly I'm falling from d top to d ground n there will b no one to hold me up agn. Felt tt my life is totally a mess nw. And I dun feel like bothering anythin or do anymore I jus wana ruin myself. Doing nth d whole day I dun wana eat I dun wana slp I dun wana do anything.
Zac Sim Yi Ming thx for everything you have given to me. Thank you
This is d song u gave it to me
This is d song u woo me back when I left.
I will always rem deep in my heart.
One, u're like a dream come true
Two, just wana be with you
Three, boy, it's plain to see
That u're d only one for me
And
four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make u fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one.
If there's a chance agn, in my nxt life or in tis life agn I would still wana b ur wife for u to love . I love you.
Goodbye my love.
Sign Off at 2:32 PM
